On worthiness:"Because the mighty and the strong don’t hold women in high regard, we feel that we’re not worthy of being held in high regard. So we miss one of the greatest steps a woman can take, which is the chance to be on her own side; to be her own health advocate. You really have to believe you’re worthy. That is the first step."
Maya Angelou on O

Read more: http://www.oprah.com/blogs/Greens-For-Breakfast-Maya-Angelou-Talks-About-Womens-Health#ixzz1wSIkSOWD

Again, Maya Angelou's words have touched my heart in a placed I hadn't yet found.  I "know" I must take care of me first and sometimes knowing this I do better.  But it is hard for me, a woman, a mother, to not tell the "yous" in my life what I think you should do.  I want to fix you when I can barely fix myself.

For today I shall try to take care of me, one hour, one day at a time.  And then all I have to do is LOVE you.  And I do!

MUSIC

"As for the future, your task is not to foresee, but to enable it."
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

The excavation of my studio and writing corner continues, and today I found this small book given to me in August of 1995 by my eldest daughter.  In it I found words and feelings about music I had written while listening to a Barbra Streisand concert.

"...about the magic in the music....it feels like we never said goodbye."
I found out that life could be loving and gentle and I can enlarge the circle of love around me, little by little, until it encompasses the whole world.


"Don't rain on my parade." From Funny Girl
Old patterns keep me soaking wet! As a result of my upbringing, being raised by two alcoholics, my needs always came last.  From my mother's side I got artistic ability, and from my father's side I got a keen mind and sense of direction.  Yet the dysfunctional selfishness of the two of them kept me in a vacuum.

Not until I was grown with adult children of my own did I find Jungian dream analysis and 12 step support groups that helped me find my own voice.

Music and especially lyrics are important to me. They can take me out of myself and into the world.

Music memories:

"Cats fit on the window sill, children fit in the snow, why is it that I don't fit in any where I go?"

"What would I do with out my music?"

What music resonates with you?

Thanks my Boo.

Saturday's LA LA fest was a wonderful start to the new "full-time artist" me.  Sold a bit, visited with old friends and made new ones.  Hope to do more of this kind of thing before too long.

I wastn't too hard to get out of my art-girl-cave!

Well except maybe for the part where my chair broke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish you Joy.

I just found an old writing of mine that I had framed for inspiration.  This is before all the life changing events that I soon would experience: 9/11
                                                           My husbands prostate cancer
                                                           My study and practice of reiki
                                                           My first of three bouts with pneumonia

I'd like to share it .

I am a vessel waiting to be filled
I welcome overflow
The life-giving, life-expecting vein of light that fills me daily
If I ask

I transcend my past resistance
I rise above all obstacles
I give gratitude for the life God gave me

Love and light
Ros

March 6, 2000

While reading THE VEIN OF GOLD
by Julia Cameron
page 242, an invitation to write a positive prayer

I invite you to do the same.

MUSES

More muses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUSE: female inspiration for art and life.

MUSES

Happy mother's day to all my muses, the beautiful and intrepid women that are with me on my path to authenticity.

Nameste'

GYPSY SOUL

My Gypsy soul wants to go to Galveston and play, yet my true self thinks I should stay home and tend to my new and beautiful roses.

My Gypsy self wishes for treasure hunts along the beach and my higher soul dreams of making art at midnight and sleeping until noon.

I wonder which self I am right now.

Father Benifield's rose.

"The garden is a ground plot for the mind."
Written by Thomas Hill "more that four hundred years ago."

The Water Lily Cross
Anthony Eglin